The Limerence Effect

The rose tinted glasses

Come off

And I’m confronted

With my hopes and dreams

That have been grinded

Into dust

Called compromise

But can you call it that

When you are the only one giving up?

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Love Poem 2

The fire started in 2016

I see the burning embers

In your eyes

Burning my idea of what I thought

Love was

You embrace me striking more heat

Feeling and feeding the flames

That I can feel at the ends of my hair

To the tips of my toes

San Francisco Day 2!

So we woke up later than I liked but it was fine. Jaime and I never get enough sleep as it is and we are on vacation! Isn’t the point of vacation is relaxing? Sometimes I forget that.

Anyway we left our Airbnb and went to Lemonade to eat some breakfast. I just got four different salads and Jaime got some brisket which was actually really fucking good. After Lemonade we hopped on Muni and headed to Montgomery to go to Chinatown.

We went to Chinatown and we took some photos and walked all the way to North Beach. Didn’t really stop much because North Beach is really just a bunch of Italian Restaurants and strip clubs. We did stop at City Lights bookstore. It’s crazy because I’m a huge reader and never in my life have I stepped into that store and it truly is a beautiful bookstore.

From North Beach we walked to the wharf again. We said hi to one of my friends that works at Pier 39 and it was just super busy for her so I didn’t get to spend much time with her but it was nice to see a friendly face again. From Pier 39 we walked around the wharf a bit and I got some souvenir for myself, a necklace and a map! After that we walked down to Lombard took some photos and took an Uber back to the Airbnb and charged our phones for a little bit.

After that we hopped on the L to go to 42nd and Taraval. I wanted to show Jaime my old apartment. From there we are Thai food at Vanida and watched the sunset at Ocean beach.

After being on the beach for awhile we hopped on the 18 and went to Stonestown for a little bit. Don’t know why because every time I’m in Stonestown I feel like I’m back in the suburbs. The mall is smaller than the one back home and I’m not exaggerating. But from Stonestown we went to SFSU where I shared some college memories with Jaime and the whole time I wish I just stuck it out and fucking graduated.

After SFSU we went back to West Portal drank and some wine bar and now we are back at our Airbnb. My friend wanted to go out to get drinks but she hasn’t hit me up. I told her to meet us at a bar on Taraval but it’s kinda far considering she lives in Oakland. I don’t know what’s going on but I’m not going to be too hurt if it doesn’t happened. I get it we all have lives and I’m an asshole for telling people at the last minute I was here. It’s just I don’t have much time and I really want to show my husband around. Hopefully I can come back soon with more time on my hands. We leave tomorrow.

San Francisco Day 1 Cont…

So we took a nap for a lot longer than we thought and ended up leaving the house around six. I don’t know but being here has made me feel weird and sentimental and I ended up FaceTiming one of my friends. It led me to visit her at one of her restaurants. She was busy but she gave us free beer. I’m suppose to hang out with her tonight but we will see.

Anyway we were in financial district and then went to the wharf. I high key think Jaime liked it and for me it had more charm than I remembered. We went to eat at Bubba Gump because he really wanted to eat there for some reason. It was okay. Not as bad as I thought it would be but Jaime was severely disappointed.

It was getting late and we decided first to go to Gold Dust but the beers were lame so I took Jaime to Kennedy’s where we had a lot of beer and played songs off the juke box with the most random songs. It felt like old times but with the man I love and it’s so crazy being here I can’t even explain it. San Francisco is the symbol of my early adulthood and who I have become. It something I have never really shared with Jaime until now and it feels special. Sorry I’m out here spitting out no sense but it’s a crazy feeling I have yet to explain properly.

Day 1 San Francisco!

I guess this post is going to be short because I didn’t land too long ago. Jaime and I landed around 11:30 and didn’t get into the city until 12:15 or 12:30. We were in the mission. Jaime says the mission reminds him of TJ. We ate at tacolicious and some pupusas place on 16th and Valencia! It’s almost like I remember other than I went to their newer locations and not the one by Skylark. (I hate that I talk about the city like everyone knows what I’m talking about.)

It’s been short and sweet (although the day is so young!) Jaime and I are really tired from the car ride and also we didn’t exactly go to sleep early last night. It took about three hours to get to LAX and the flight was okay about fifty minutes but it’s still tiring. We are back at the Airbnb. He’s asleep right now so I’m taking advantage. It feels good to be back but it’s also weird. Small changes in a big city you use to live in are just so weird to encounter.

(I need to take more pictures but it’s weird when you feel like you are back at home)

Nashville, Tennessee

He makes me feel like Nashville Tennessee

His hot mouth taste like whisky

and I become drunk off his love

I’m the strings to his guitar

and he likes to play me slowly

and all night long

His words are like hot chicken

making me feel full

full of soul

full of spice

full of love

His eyes are bright

like Broadway

Neon Lights

Filled of dreams

of just you & me